Tuesday, September 05, 2006

First Day At Kindergarten

One lime green trench coat, five lime green knitted tops, six Coach pocket books, one Cartier watch, two generic tees, no pulp orange juice, coffee, Kleenex, one Jackie Onassis look alike minding her makeup as she wiped her tears, one red pashmina throw on a black pant suit, three fading blondes, slivered smoked salmon, mini bagels, pine apple chunks, five brunettes with blond highlights, one Filipino woman, two daddies in business formal, one Chinese couple and me. That was the composition of the Boo Hoo breakfast for kindergarten parents at J's elementary school this morning. Everyone knew everyone and their grandmother forever but they tried very hard to make polite conversation with me.

I put her on the school bus with a prayer for her to reach safe. One other mom said she was glad it was a woman bus driver - made her feel safer. Seeing the bus leave felt at once like the severing of an emotional umbilical and the freeing of a bird from a cage. The parting with my baby now all grown up was so bitter sweet. She was brave, eager and rearing to go out into the "real" world. She woke up at 6:00 in the morning and effortlessly - knowing her, I had expected that. When I sneaked a peek into Mrs H's room, I saw J smiling and talking excitedly. Our eyes met briefly and she glowed with happiness. How I miss my baby already !

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