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End of Tunnel

Lately I have been stepping into grocery stores and pharmacies just to assure myself the world is still okay, the shelves are not all bare. Seeing depleted supplies replenished in a few days fills me with hope that tomorrow can and will be better, that the end of this ordeal is near. Today I was chatting with a young lady at the local CVS who told me she had one last travel sized hand-sanitizer that she could give me now. My alternative was to wait until next Tuesday when the supply truck came. People were queued outside the store since 5:30 am so it would not be easy even on that day. 

That there is still a path to more supplies at least right now and that felt oddly assuring - next Tuesday a large number of people (even if not me) would be able to stock up on hand sanitizer. Maybe my turn might come a few weeks out - I can live with that.

For the kids who left to college last fall and are back home for an indefinite period of time now, the future is scary uncertain. The days and months matter in this phase of their life. There is no way to stockpile the college experience like hand-sanitizer to expend over this hiatus of unknown duration. Helping J to navigate this unexpected phase of life will prove a challenge for me I have no doubt. 

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