Chup by Deepa Narayan was an emotionally difficult read for me. I stopped many times along the way feeling depleted. Finally finished reading it on my way home a few weeks ago. Indian women will find some part of their story told in this book in the words of other women or in the author's narrative. The story is not a pleasant one and Narayan does not hesitate to emphasize that point over and over - hence the recurring feeling of depletion as you read.
I had to wonder if this book will resonate with Indian men or people from outside of India. There are some universal themes there but the focus is very sharply on the Indian woman. The one theme that stood out the most for me is the lack of trusted relationships between women - we are indeed a house divided. I am guilty of not preferring to work for a female boss and conversely do not enjoy managing female employees. I did not have the courage to introspect the reasons for the this - what exactly drives that behavior in me and many other women.
Narayan talks about the lack of trust between women - believing we can actually have each other's back. Perhaps this is a driver. I mentor early career women and find it very satisfying. From the feedback I have heard, my mentees value their relationship with me. But I would not want to convert that people management situation where those same women worked for me. I would rather they used the lessons learned from our conversations to go work elsewhere for someone else. In personal life, the lack of trust bleeds to lack of anchoring friendships that can tide a woman over crisis.
I have tried with atleast four women I thought were my friends - reached out to them in my most vulnerable time. All four of them decided it was best to move on from me once the crisis was over - they simply did not want to have my "normal" self in their life. I might have been an interesting or even worthy "project" for them so they did what they could to help in that bad patch. But without my project-worthiness I was not someone they wanted to deal with at all. I wondered many times over the years why that was but never could find a satisfactory answer to that question. Maybe it is the inherent lack of trust.
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